I know it has been a while since I posted last, and I just read over my April entry. I am so not there anymore. I am not happy or content, I am misereable. Everyone can see it, I can't even hide it anymore.
Work has been really hard and emotionally draining lately, have a lot of things going on at home that makes me want to crawl under the covers and say, wake me up when it gets better.
I have gained alot of weight back from my surgery and I am not happy about it. I know what I need to do, I just cant seem to do it. My depression is back full force and not letting up this time.
Everyone says take baby steps... I cant even get up on my feet to step. I know i have to make changes to get back on track, but they overwhelm me right now and i cant handle them.
WHY????
I dont know why, I am not a weak person, I am not a timid person, I am not a dependant person.
I should be able to do this, it sounds so simple. I know what i need to do, it is not rocket science. I just cant get out of my own way!!!!!!
